(Source: theofficedaily)
Not Meant To Be.
I can’t keep this up..
I don’t want to break your heart..
I can’t keep lying..
I don’t want to see you cry..
I can’t keep crying..
I don’t want to admit defeat..
I can’t keep acting this wayy..
I can’t fake love..
So, tell me honestly..
Why did we skip the “friendship” part..
I feel like we jumped right from re-connecting to you using the “L” word..
I’m a little freaked out..
But I care about you..
Just not in THAT wayy..
I try to force it onto myself..
Try to convince myself of what isn’t true..
But we both deserve to be happy..
You with Krystal..
Me with Connor..
You might not see it, but I do.
You and Krystal fit..
You match..
You combine into something wonderful..
You were wonderful..
You could be that again..
Just try it.? For both of our sakes, you need to move on because you and me wont work. I need a friendship from you. And even if you don’t think so, you need a friendship from me.
I’m sorry, this is just the wayy things need to be. The wayy things are supposed to be. This weekend was a sign, I’m not meant to be with you.
I can’t tell you how many people I’ve hurt.
I can’t tell you how many broken hearts were shattered at my fault.
I can’t tell you How many times I have disappointed others.
I can’t tell you that I’ll try harder.
I can’t tell you that it’ll all be OKK.
I can’t tell you that I believe love exists.
I can’t tell you I’m lying.
I can’t tell you its the truth.
I can’t tell you because I don’t know for sure either.
Can you kill my deep pain?
It’s hurting me so much!
Can’t bury it!!
Can you wake me up from the nightmares?
Lost voices are haunting me!!
I am losing control
Can you set me free?
I am lost in the darkness
I lust for deep sleep so long
Can you save me?
I can’t hold my breath
Screaming but no one is hearing me
I am dead to the world
Losing control slowly
So slowly that I am fading and becoming invisible
Alexandra Todorovic
Happenings just like that Rain
yet the dampness still refusing to leave;
Oh it’s too much to take
the language of reality.Words misplaced on the way
just like lightning too fast to catch;
It poured and poured generously
never knowing, it poisoned me.Thou only saw the picture
yet the stories lied beneath;
Thou’s eyes seldom met monsoon
but in mine, raining everyday.Plenty made thou’s garden
only a handful making mine;
Memories knocking thou once a while
but knocking my every breath.Those words resounding all this while
like the breeze whispering to leaves;
Tying me down in the arms of weeds
with those unsolved hidden objectives.Laying drowned in the pool of tears
but not a leaf on sight to hold;
Days passing, heart closing
yet that hope still remaining.Arms clutching, toung fastening
grieving silently to the air;
empty eyes, breaking down
dissolving slowly in last rain.
Suhana Begum
Rivers long wept run through my stony heart,
Cutting out its initials with every barrier broken;
And the child inside me can’t help but drown,
Lost in the murky depths of others’ insults and lies.
Every mark torn and scratched into the flesh of
The one who has failed everyone that matters,
And it is felt like an open wound,
Born to forever bleed,
Just like how the water continues to flow
Until it reaches the safety of the ocean.
The bandages are hard to hide underneath this fragile body,
Yet showing them means to degrade myself,
To be like the rocks that sink to the bottom
When you toss them into the depths.
It’s just another knot to hide.
When will I ever reach my ocean?
Amy Elizabeth Miller.
